Do you watch FRIENDS? Do you remember that episode of Chandler’s and Monica’s wedding?
Do you remember in end they find out that Rachel is pregnant? But she is not sure if she is really pregnant. So they decide to take the test again.
Phoebe checks the result.
For a moment Rachel doesn’t know what to do. She isn’t pregnant. She isn’t carrying a baby. She isn’t going to be a mom.
All of a sudden she is just Rachel again.
No, it’s positive.
We need to do this sometimes to know what we really want.
I just recalled all this to gain your sympathy.
It just happened that I am doing my post graduation in Computer Application from a distance university.
And I missed a practical just because I didn’t go and check if there was any notice displayed.
And when I realized what I did I was about to cry or one can say I was about to sob, but I didn’t. Not a single tear. Because I always keep on claiming that I really don’t care about this course. I am just doing it for the sake of.
But do I really?
Oh gosh! I am really disappointed in myself for this behavior. I never thought I will stoop so low. But I did.
And this Master’s course made me do many such things which I would not have done otherwise…
This post is dedicated to all those things. Here are some of them-
1. I failed. not once. But in every exam.
I have at least 2 results for all exams.
2. I wrote a test for a subject for 4 times. I finally passed at 4th attempt.
3. 4 attempts blessed me with a year drop.
4. I didn’t write an exam, just because I was irritated, frustrated, tired, sick or whatever sounds more convincing.
5. I went for a practical and just came back without taking the test, again whichever reason you feel is more convincing for doing this.
6. The most obvious one is, going to an exam without being prepared.
And there are 3 more semesters to go. I don’t know what’s in the store.
For some, this may not be that a big deal. Failing an exam, writing it over again and again, going to an exam without preparation can be very normal.
But for someone like me, who have never done this before, yes it is a big deal. Or now I must say it was a big deal. I had friends who weren’t as a lucky as me in case of amenities and didn’t have literate parents like me. But they still worked hard and are successful in their lives. They used to make me feel ashamed of myself when I couldn’t have a better score. If they can do it, why not me?
So having come from such a background, it was initially not taken well by anybody around me. And I had convinced myself that this is absolutely fine. I am working now and the final degree may not even matter much later. But this recent incident was an eye-opener.
Whatever may be the reason for taking up the course, and whatever be its value. now its time to get rid of it. To finish it off. Stop being lazy. And to work hard. It’s time to move on and go ahead with life.
Wish me luck friends.